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Thursday 3 August 2017

Pengalaman denggi berdarah

Assalammualaikum..

Hari ni aku nak cerita tentang pengalaman aku kena demam denggi berdarah.

Aku start kene masa bulan april. Akhir bln April.. hari tu hari Jumaat. Aku ingat sbb hari sabtu tu aku kena tahan wad sbb positive denggi. Hari Jumaat tu aku balik rumah macam biasa sbb rumah aku (kota damansara) dekat ngn uitm shah alam. Kira balik minggu lah. Hm tgh hari tu aku rasa suhu bdn aku tinggi. Panas sgt. Even lepas mandi pon still panas. Then ptg tu aku balik rumah. Its all started when my back hurt so much mcm malaikat maut nak tarik nyawa ok tak acah je sakit dy macam masa period pain. Girls paham lah sakit camne kan. Hm sumpah tak tipu mmg sakit sgt2. Aku tak tahan sakit tu smpai aku nangis. Aku taknak gi klinik sbb aku ingat aku nak period. Mak aku pon terkejut tgk aku nangis smbil jerit "sakit2". Mlm tu aku ssh nak tidur. Sbb rasa panas gila even bilik aku dah pasang aircond plg sejuk masa tu. Esok tu aku ingat dah okay. Panas badan still tak turun2. Mak dah start risau. Masa maghrib tu aku gi solat then trus pi hospital swasta. Kat situ lama gila kene tunggu turn. Geram aku. Then masa tiba giliran aku, Dr perempuan india.. check aku pastu dy tak bagi aku balik sbb nak check darah. Sementara tu aku tunggu kat wad ER. Then nurse datang and cakap aku positive demam denggi. I was like WHATTTTTT!! Masa tu lah start pikir esaimen group project n test yg berlambak bakal aku hadapi. Oh my goodness. Tak keruan aku masa tu. Terus ws kawan aku yg aku kene tahan wad. Tapi yg takleh blah nya dyorg tak percayakan aku n siap kutuk lagi. Haih sabar je lah. Lepas lawat aku kat hospital baru korg tahu. Hahahaha nasib aku syg korg kalau tak mmg taknak maafkan korg sbb kutuk aku hahaha k dah.

First day kat dalam bilik biasa. Makan masa tu boleh lagi. Minum and makan ubat pon okay. Eh bukan ubat tapi vit C. Sbb doktor cakap demam denggi takde ubat. Lol. I thought she was joking around. But its true tho. Huhu. Hm tak best gila dok sorg2 kat hospital. Sumpah sedih. Dah lah kene cocok ngn jarum. Uwaaa menyakitkan. Pastu kene ambik darah setiap 4jam. Sakit woi. Huhuhuhu.

Second day ke third day tah aku tak ingat. Doktor kata kat mak platelets aku become worst. Ya Allah nak gugur jantung masa tu. Aku dah macam is this the end of my life huhuhu makkk Ada taknak mati lagi.. hmm then kene tuka wad icu. Khas untuk pesakit demam denggi. Ha time ni lah selera makan aku hilang. Ape aku telan aku muntah balik. Especially makanan yg bergaram and buah kiwi. Pastu mak asyik paksa aku makan. Nak buka mata pon tak larat masa ni. Rasa lemah sangat. Sbb tak makan. Oh pastu aku minta kat mak sup ayam. Aku takleh telan sup yg cukup rasa which means ada rasa garam sikit pon hahaha aku makan sup ayam yg mak tak letak garam. Tu je yg boleh terima kt tekak ni. Aku kesian kat mak sbb mak tak cukup tdo jaga aku. Ada syg mak sgt2.

Then that night.. pukul 2 pagi. Dr kejut aku. "Adik.. adik kene pindah hospital sg buloh. Sbb kat sana adik akan dirawat dgn lebih baik." Ha lebih krg camtu lah ayat dr masa tu. Hoho rupanya aku disahkan demam denggi berdarah. Plg terok platelets aku dah drop smpai 10. And i was confirm sbb ptg tu aku period. Padahal baru lepas period 2 minggu lepas. Hmm mlm tu gak aku kene transfer hospital. It was the scariest night of my life sbb first time masuk ambulans. Scary woi. Tapi naseb aku tgh lemah masatu. Kalau tak mmg aku berkeras mati2an taknak naik ambulans. K.. bila dah smpai hospital sg buloh aku masuk lagi kt ER. Time sakit. Sbb kene cucuk lagi sekali. First kat hospital swasta tu kene cucuk kat blkg tapak tgn. Tak sngka rupanya that one just untuk budak2 je. No wonder lah aku pelik masa dy cucuk kat situ. Hm the kene cucuk kat tmpt ambik darah tu. Time ni aku rasa nak maki je. Pahal urat aku taknak timbul2. Aish geram gila. Nurse dok tepok lah byk kali. At last keluar jgk. Then kene cucuk lagi. Sumpah aku benci jarum. Sumpah tak tipu. Sepanjang aku hidup ni lah pertama kali aku kene cucuk banyak kali. Sakittttt. Hmm then lepas dah siap cucuk ambik darah masuk air sume aku transfer kat wad icu.

Dalam icu tu..... hm igtkan aku makin okay.. then bila xray n apetah nama lgi satu tu..... hm aku punya bdn penuh ngn air. Jantung, paru2 and perut penuh sgt ngn air. Platelets aku pon still sama n tak naik2. Pastu dr treat lah aku n paksa aku makan nasi yg bg. Makanan tu sedap. Tapi aku takde selera lgsg nak makan. Sampai aku rasa baik takyah bg makanan. Membazir je sbb aku tak makan lgsg. Mak.. hm mak bwk bekal setiap hari. Pagi, tgh hari n ptg. No one can stay with me sbb dlm icu kan. I sleep alone. Just ada nurse and pesakit2 lain. Aku byk tdo je sbb tak larat lgsg nak buka mata. Hm pastu masa Dr dtg checkup pon aku tdo. Punya lah mata ni pemalas nak bukak. Then berlalu lah ke hari seterusnya... Alhamdulillah.. demam aku dah kebah. Platelets aku dah naik sikit. Tapi air dalam paru2 jantung n perut still ada lagi. Sebabnya aku asyik baring je. Oh lupa nak cite.. hehe masa ni kwn2 uitm aku dtg melawat termasuk sir falah. Maigod terharunya. Lebiu gais so much. Terasa diri ini begitu berharga hehe...

K ni part lawak. Hahahaha Nurse suruh aku cycle guna yg mcm tmpat kayuh basikal tu tapi part kaki je yg untuk org kencing manis tu. Aku pon cycle lah memandang kan aku dah sihat sikit. Aku kayuh dari pukul 9 pagi sampai pukul 12. Sbb aku nak keluar hospital cepat. Aku benci hospital. Hahaha.
Then pukul 2 ramai gila Dr n Dr practical dtg buat checkup dalam wad icu tu. Check every patient. Hehe time aku ade sorg Dr india perempuan tu terkejut. Tgk dah takde air dlm bdn aku. Sbb smlm dy check n dy geleng kepala mcm aku takde harapan nak hidup dah. Hahaha i could see her face shock. Then malam tu aku dah boleh keluar icu and masuk wad biasa. Yeayy.. penderitaan dgn jarum dah habis. Thats what i thought. Rupanya tak. Still kene cucuk ambik darah. Tapi tak sebanyak kat icu lah. Kene ambik setiap 2 jam. Hm tapi masa kat wad biasa ni aku dah rasa kuat sikit. Kalau nak jalan tu hm boleh but still kene ade org papah. Masa kat icu aku takleh gerak lgsg dari katil sbb lemah sgt. Pastu kene pakai tiub kencing tu. K malas cite that part. Yg penting masa ni aku dah boleh bangun. Tapi aku ingat dah boleh balik rumah terus. Rupanya kene stay lagi satu malam kat wad biasa tu. Esok tu baru confirm keluar. Alhamdulillah syukur sangat2. Aku dah boleh keluar. Hehe tapi still lah jalan pon kene pgg org. Adoi lemah sungguh aku ni. Cuba lah kuat sikit. Haha tak habis2 menyusahkan org. Flip diri sendiri. Huhuhuhu.

Aku nak cite after effect demam denggi berdarah tapi esok lah... aku dah ngntok.. bye..
Kpd sesape yg pernah kene denggi or tgh kene denggi.. percaya lah ada kene kuat.. pikir org tersyg dan anda mampu teruskan hidup. Sepanjang aku sakit tu. Aku pikirkan mak aku je. Aku taknak mak rasa kehilangan seorg anak mcm mana makngah n pakngah aku rasa. Sepupu aku meninggal sbb kene sakit jantung secara tiba2 masa main bola sepak. And makngah aku asyik nangis bila lawat aku. Aku tak sanggup tgk mak aku nangis jugak.Tapi mak mmg betul2 kuat jaga aku. Taknak bg mak rasa ape yg makngah aku rasa. Kesedihan seorg ibu bila kehilangan anaknya. Hm btw after arwah sepupu aku meninggal .. makngah n pakngah selalu pergi kubur and baca yaasin kat arwah. Nampak tak kasih syg seorg ibu tiada gantinya. Semoga makngah n pakngah terus kuat menjalani hidup dan semoga roh arwah dicucuri rahmat Allah. Hm tercerita panjang lebar pulak.

Okay lah bye. Assalammualaikum. Jaga makan jaga hati jaga iman ye yeorobun ❤️

Thursday 5 January 2017

Foolishly In Love


Assalammualaikum..

I just wanna share my friend story here.

Its about a fool girl who love someone so much that she gave everything to that guy.

She loved him.
The way she talk to him and look at him so passionately, and she even smiling in her sleep because she loved him so much. She cant imagine her life without him. 
Every night she wait for him to say gudnite wish to her.
He also loved her.
The way he talk to her and look at he is so passionately. Like she was belong to him forever.
Love her too much that he cant even do anything if he lose her.

They were so in love that they give everything to each other.

BUT
their love wont last long.
his friend
comes to his life and he changed.
He stop care about her.
he no longer look at her the way he look at her before.
he no longer attracts her attention.
he just stop everything.
he say he is tired.

the girl.
who is a fool
that gave everything to him.
become mad cause she was too jealous to his friends.

she always attracts his attention by cursing his friends and mad at him
she just cant stay quiet
she always stalked his friends
and pressure him whenever she jealous.

but she doesnt know that , the guy is no longer care about her.
he holds the relays just because he felt responsible,
but he also cant stand about her temper anymore.
so he stop loving her.
he's enjoy himself alone and with his friends.

At last.. they break up.

the girl is no longer stalk his friends and stalk everything about him.
she just stop. she is tired.
she lose the one she loved so much.
she gave up as he gave up on her.

now, she just want to be free and wish never be a fool again.
because she can bear the painful memories anymore.
its too painful that she want to hate him until death come to her.
she still remember about his promise.
his promise that he will never leave her.
because he doesnt want her to feel the pain of being left alone.
HE LIED.
HE LEFT HER.
HE NO LONGER FIND HER.
HE JUST STOP.

she wish that she will never see him again even in her dream.
she hates him.
she gonna hate him until she died.


so thats the story... the end of a fool in love. 
Pray for her own happiness, so she could loves herself more.
to that guy, she wish you to be happy. 
but one thing she cant do..
SHE CANT FORGIVE YOU.